Thursday, January 26, 2012

New Year...New you...I mean me.

So....I have been really busy with all the holidays and my daughters birthday. I plan to post more often this year. It's one of my goals on the journey of creating a new me. I want to do more of what I enjoy and I'm going to make craftin' at least a weekly thing and not let other things ruin something I enjoy so much. Things like laundry or dishes....ok, that makes me sound dirty (I promise I'm not) but I worry about letting a few dishes sit in the sink or a load of laundry sitting for more than a day. I'm going to stop sweating the small stuff so I can enjoy life a little more.

Speaking of small stuff...(as I laugh a worried laugh) my work started this new wellness program and if you participate you get a discount on your health insurance premium. Awesome...I thought....until I started filling out all the paperwork to participate. Now I'm freaked out. I know I'm not the thinnest thing and I would love to lose about 20 pounds to feel a little more comfortable in my own skin. I don't think I'm that overweight, I've always been the "bigger" girl in the bunch but I chalked that up to playing soccer (what seemed like) 24/7 for 13 years. I had muscular legs and a solid upper body. I wasn't freakishly muscular but I was built for sports. Any who...after filling in height and weight the stupid thing said I need to lose 50#....really??? I'm that overweight? I ask myself these questions as I try to picture myself 50# lighter.

That's just the tip of the iceberg, I then start to think about the upcoming blood test that will determine any other health issues I might have. If I'm 50# overweight, I think, there has to be more wrong with me. My lab test/blood draw is this Saturday. I should find out what else is wrong with me in the next 5-7 days after the test. On the brighter side of's a step towards the new me. I'm going to do it. I may not feel like I need to lose all 50# but who couldn't hurt to try, right?

Sorry for boring all of you with my personal life details but I had to get it off my chest. I need to stop being negative and start looking at the positive with this wellness thing.